It seems sometimes that life itself is the paint that insulates us from and covers up the ugly rotting walls of fear
until dreams are the only place for true terror or sorrow!
Anymore,
I've had dreams where I've cried,
I've had dreams where I've felt very afraid,
more often than I experience these things in reality.
And it makes me think that the loss of vulnerability correlates with success.
Of course it does in what I know of our culture and our times,
Everyone wants to be safe anymore
to the point of being safe from experiencing life at all.
I work with the poor
and I see how unprotected it must feel to not have a job or a place to live
to hide behind
How different the experience must be
carrying that vulnerability
Success in our culture is in some ways the overcoming of life itself
"Therefore, my beloved, as ye have always obeyed, not only in my presence, but now much more in my absence, work out your own salvation with fear and trembling. For it is God who worketh in you, both to will and to do of His good pleasure." -Philippians 2:12-13
Saturday, April 29, 2006
DECAPITATED STATUE OF BUDDHA!... or I met the Buddha on the side of the road but someone had already killed him!
Went out driving around looking for Garage sales today. I saw some interesting things, here are the highlights:
- A pile of stuff at the side of someone's driveway that they had obviously decided to smash before throwing out. Included in the pile, a small statue of buddha with the head broken off. This kind of made me laugh because I think it's ironic. I imagine that this pile of rubble was created by university students who didn't want to take their stuff home. I guess that the Buddha statue must have been too heavy to carry with them.
- Laura, who also went on a Chastity tour that I did but went to the east coast while my group went to the west coast was having a garage sale. She's a message therapist now. She had a really cool white dresser there that had been decorated by having sheets of music attached to it all over. It made it look pretty cool.
- Saw two beautiful, large wooden record cabinet's in excellent shape with only a few scratches and all the guts intact sitting at the side of the road in front of a large house. I pulled over and opened the lids to see that one had the small turntable for playing 45's and the other had the full sized deck in it. They both still had records in them. I didn't look through the records because I was kind of confused and sad that someone would throw something like that away and wanted to think that maybe they belonged to someone and were just sitting there for a moment.
- I went to a garage sale and bought a daryl hall and john oates record for 50 cents. I'm listenning to it now and it is terrible music!!!!! This doesn't appeal to me at all. I think that I had them confused with Simon and Garfunkel or bell and sebastian. This record is awfull... does anyone want it? it's in good condition and it's free!
- A pile of stuff at the side of someone's driveway that they had obviously decided to smash before throwing out. Included in the pile, a small statue of buddha with the head broken off. This kind of made me laugh because I think it's ironic. I imagine that this pile of rubble was created by university students who didn't want to take their stuff home. I guess that the Buddha statue must have been too heavy to carry with them.
- Laura, who also went on a Chastity tour that I did but went to the east coast while my group went to the west coast was having a garage sale. She's a message therapist now. She had a really cool white dresser there that had been decorated by having sheets of music attached to it all over. It made it look pretty cool.
- Saw two beautiful, large wooden record cabinet's in excellent shape with only a few scratches and all the guts intact sitting at the side of the road in front of a large house. I pulled over and opened the lids to see that one had the small turntable for playing 45's and the other had the full sized deck in it. They both still had records in them. I didn't look through the records because I was kind of confused and sad that someone would throw something like that away and wanted to think that maybe they belonged to someone and were just sitting there for a moment.
- I went to a garage sale and bought a daryl hall and john oates record for 50 cents. I'm listenning to it now and it is terrible music!!!!! This doesn't appeal to me at all. I think that I had them confused with Simon and Garfunkel or bell and sebastian. This record is awfull... does anyone want it? it's in good condition and it's free!
Meanings of Words
Sometimes I have to think about what things mean. Where is the line between a sentance being completely incoherent and ingenious?
I spent over an hour last night playing a game of checkers with a man who claims to analyse the meanings of letters in words when people speak to him and reads dictionary's for fun.
He tried to the best of his ability to explain to me what he would consider to be an integral mind. If I caught the gist of his point correctly, he was saying that eccentrics don't have the right to label a man of vigor such as himself as psychotic because he believes in the individual and won't personalize with it. He called this "personal philosophics" and I asked him if that meant that he had an entirely subjective philosophical system to which he replied, "no, I'm not anywhere near that good at it yet".
He used a lot of large words in his speach, yet it was still possible to understand some of what he was saying with a lot of concentration. It felt kind of like trying to understand another language at times.
Hopefully, I haven't crossed the line on confidentiality by describing the above interaction, but I really felt it raises some important issues or at least leads me to think of some great questions.
- Does a person have the right to decide that they are or are not crazy even if their behaviour or conversation style might seem crazy to others?
- Vocabulary can make a person sound crazy or ingenious, where is this line? People use big words to sound smart all the time. When is this constructive and when is it not? How does vocabulary relate to power? (don't people in power usually use the big words? if an individual wants to make up thier own big words or phrases people won't try as hard to understand because the person isn't in a position of power)
- Is there a point where a person can go into their own way of thinking and of analysing things and loose their connection with reality but still be aware of it?
I spent over an hour last night playing a game of checkers with a man who claims to analyse the meanings of letters in words when people speak to him and reads dictionary's for fun.
He tried to the best of his ability to explain to me what he would consider to be an integral mind. If I caught the gist of his point correctly, he was saying that eccentrics don't have the right to label a man of vigor such as himself as psychotic because he believes in the individual and won't personalize with it. He called this "personal philosophics" and I asked him if that meant that he had an entirely subjective philosophical system to which he replied, "no, I'm not anywhere near that good at it yet".
He used a lot of large words in his speach, yet it was still possible to understand some of what he was saying with a lot of concentration. It felt kind of like trying to understand another language at times.
Hopefully, I haven't crossed the line on confidentiality by describing the above interaction, but I really felt it raises some important issues or at least leads me to think of some great questions.
- Does a person have the right to decide that they are or are not crazy even if their behaviour or conversation style might seem crazy to others?
- Vocabulary can make a person sound crazy or ingenious, where is this line? People use big words to sound smart all the time. When is this constructive and when is it not? How does vocabulary relate to power? (don't people in power usually use the big words? if an individual wants to make up thier own big words or phrases people won't try as hard to understand because the person isn't in a position of power)
- Is there a point where a person can go into their own way of thinking and of analysing things and loose their connection with reality but still be aware of it?
Tuesday, April 18, 2006
The Silver Jews
So, My love bought me a new peice of vinyl yesterday afternoon (for my birthday, so she didn't say what it is). She told me that it's something that she was surprised to see for sale, that I've been interested in for the past month and that it's an album she thinks that I will really enjoy listening to. She was very surprised that I didn't figure out what band she was talking about. I really didn't have any idea what band she was talking about at the time. I still might not have the right band. I thought that making a post like this would be a neat indirect way of saying that I have a guess! but I'm still not sure what album it might be. Anyways, I'm looking forward to it! And now I'm really excited about my birthday!!!!
:D
"In 27 years I've drunk fifty thousand beers
and they just wash against me like the sea into a pier." - trains across the sea (silver Jews)
I was going to quote something from one of the peices of writing on their webpage, but I guess that they've removed all the writing except song lyrics.
Oh! I found their writing from my old post! they just don't link to it anymore.
"The classicist's theme is the recovery of the subjective mind, the healing of the subjective mind. Well, our courts are clogged with these minds." - Clip-On Tie: The Diary of a New York Art Museum Security Guard
by David Berman, published in Baffler #6
Monday, April 17, 2006
Why Some don't run
Some athelete's think they could be rich and famous
but instead they never run
For some people, it's just a thing
Like putting a price on a song that bird's sing
And it's fear that escourts all of us to the grave
It's fear that makes cowards and fear that makes kings
but what if your leg's go soft?
and what if your ears fall off?
and if you tumble across the tv screen
like a tumbleweed but twice as fast
does that mean twice as many things?
No, some don't run
And some turtles win races
And some birds sing for the hell of it
And some ship's return home
And you never hear tell of it
And sometimes running can be really difficult
And you get lazy and say,
why should I bother with this thing?
And everyone asks you what you're running from in the first place
but really there's nothing wrong with it either way,
Probably
And I also believe in dreams,
And I think that if you're supposed to run,
Then you will,
Unless you really screw something up,
I guess
Some people don't have legs,
Or some don't exist at all,
Although that would challenge the traditional definition of person
Will anyone ever live without fear?
Hopefully someday,
we're looking at something like that.
I'm talking about the afterlife here,
I think.
And some just don't run.
It's like they are doing something else
or they have some other really good excuse
but instead they never run
For some people, it's just a thing
Like putting a price on a song that bird's sing
And it's fear that escourts all of us to the grave
It's fear that makes cowards and fear that makes kings
but what if your leg's go soft?
and what if your ears fall off?
and if you tumble across the tv screen
like a tumbleweed but twice as fast
does that mean twice as many things?
No, some don't run
And some turtles win races
And some birds sing for the hell of it
And some ship's return home
And you never hear tell of it
And sometimes running can be really difficult
And you get lazy and say,
why should I bother with this thing?
And everyone asks you what you're running from in the first place
but really there's nothing wrong with it either way,
Probably
And I also believe in dreams,
And I think that if you're supposed to run,
Then you will,
Unless you really screw something up,
I guess
Some people don't have legs,
Or some don't exist at all,
Although that would challenge the traditional definition of person
Will anyone ever live without fear?
Hopefully someday,
we're looking at something like that.
I'm talking about the afterlife here,
I think.
And some just don't run.
It's like they are doing something else
or they have some other really good excuse
Some quotes on fear (selected verses)
- Genesis 9:2
And the fear of you and the dread of you shall be upon every beast of the earth, and upon every fowl of the air, upon all that moveth upon the earth, and upon all the fishes of the sea; into your hand are they delivered.
Genesis 9:1-3 (in Context) Genesis 9 (Whole Chapter) - Genesis 15:1
After these things the word of the LORD came unto Abram in a vision, saying, Fear not, Abram: I am thy shield, and thy exceeding great reward.
Genesis 15:1-3 (in Context) Genesis 15 (Whole Chapter) - Genesis 20:11
And Abraham said, Because I thought, Surely the fear of God is not in this place; and they will slay me for my wife's sake.
Genesis 20:10-12 (in Context) Genesis 20 (Whole Chapter) - Psalm 2:11
Serve the LORD with fear, and rejoice with trembling.
Psalm 2:10-12 (in Context) Psalm 2 (Whole Chapter) - Psalm 5:7
But as for me, I will come into thy house in the multitude of thy mercy: and in thy fear will I worship toward thy holy temple.
Psalm 5:6-8 (in Context) Psalm 5 (Whole Chapter) - Psalm 9:20
Put them in fear, O LORD: that the nations may know themselves to be but men. Selah.
Psalm 9:19-21 (in Context) Psalm 9 (Whole Chapter) - Psalm 19:9
The fear of the LORD is clean, enduring for ever: the judgments of the LORD are true and righteous altogether.
Psalm 19:8-10 (in Context) Psalm 19 (Whole Chapter) - Psalm 23:4
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.
Psalm 23:3-5 (in Context) Psalm 23 (Whole Chapter) - Psalm 25:14
The secret of the LORD is with them that fear him; and he will shew them his covenant.
Psalm 25:13-15 (in Context) Psalm 25 (Whole Chapter) - Psalm 27:1
The LORD is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? the LORD is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?
Psalm 27:1-3 (in Context) Psalm 27 (Whole Chapter) - Psalm 27:3
Though an host should encamp against me, my heart shall not fear: though war should rise against me, in this will I be confident.
Psalm 27:2-4 (in Context) Psalm 27 (Whole Chapter) - Psalm 33:18
Behold, the eye of the LORD is upon them that fear him, upon them that hope in his mercy;
Psalm 33:17-19 (in Context) Psalm 33 (Whole Chapter) - Psalm 34:7
The angel of the LORD encampeth round about them that fear him, and delivereth them.
Psalm 34:6-8 (in Context) Psalm 34 (Whole Chapter) - Psalm 34:9
O fear the LORD, ye his saints: for there is no want to them that fear him.
Psalm 34:8-10 (in Context) Psalm 34 (Whole Chapter) - Psalm 34:11
Come, ye children, hearken unto me: I will teach you the fear of the LORD.
Psalm 34:10-12 (in Context) Psalm 34 (Whole Chapter) - Psalm 40:3
And he hath put a new song in my mouth, even praise unto our God: many shall see it, and fear, and shall trust in the LORD.
Psalm 40:2-4 (in Context) Psalm 40 (Whole Chapter) - Psalm 46:2
Therefore will not we fear, though the earth be removed, and though the mountains be carried into the midst of the sea;
Psalm 46:1-3 (in Context) Psalm 46 (Whole Chapter) - Psalm 56:4
In God I will praise his word, in God I have put my trust; I will not fear what flesh can do unto me.
Psalm 56:3-5 (in Context) Psalm 56 (Whole Chapter) - Psalm 66:16
Come and hear, all ye that fear God, and I will declare what he hath done for my soul.
Psalm 66:15-17 (in Context) Psalm 66 (Whole Chapter) - Psalm 67:7
God shall bless us; and all the ends of the earth shall fear him.
Psalm 67:6-8 (in Context) Psalm 67 (Whole Chapter) - Psalm 96:9
O worship the LORD in the beauty of holiness: fear before him, all the earth.
Psalm 96:8-10 (in Context) Psalm 96 (Whole Chapter) - Psalm 103:13
Like as a father pitieth his children, so the LORD pitieth them that fear him.
Psalm 103:12-14 (in Context) Psalm 103 (Whole Chapter) - Psalm 111:10
The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom: a good understanding have all they that do his commandments: his praise endureth for ever.
Psalm 111:9-11 (in Context) Psalm 111 (Whole Chapter) - Psalm 119:120
My flesh trembleth for fear of thee; and I am afraid of thy judgments.
Psalm 119:119-121 (in Context) Psalm 119 (Whole Chapter) - Proverbs 15:16
Better is little with the fear of the LORD than great treasure and trouble therewith.
Proverbs 15:15-17 (in Context) Proverbs 15 (Whole Chapter) - Proverbs 23:17
Let not thine heart envy sinners: but be thou in the fear of the LORD all the day long.
Proverbs 23:16-18 (in Context) Proverbs 23 (Whole Chapter) - Ecclesiastes 3:14
I know that, whatsoever God doeth, it shall be for ever: nothing can be put to it, nor any thing taken from it: and God doeth it, that men should fear before him.
Ecclesiastes 3:13-15 (in Context) Ecclesiastes 3 (Whole Chapter) - Micah 7:17
They shall lick the dust like a serpent, they shall move out of their holes like worms of the earth: they shall be afraid of the LORD our God, and shall fear because of thee.
Micah 7:16-18 (in Context) Micah 7 (Whole Chapter) - Malachi 1:6
A son honoureth his father, and a servant his master: if then I be a father, where is mine honour? and if I be a master, where is my fear? saith the LORD of hosts unto you, O priests, that despise my name. And ye say, Wherein have we despised thy name?
Malachi 1:5-7 (in Context) Malachi 1 (Whole Chapter) - Malachi 2:5
My covenant was with him of life and peace; and I gave them to him for the fear wherewith he feared me, and was afraid before my name.
Malachi 2:4-6 (in Context) Malachi 2 (Whole Chapter) - Malachi 4:2
But unto you that fear my name shall the Sun of righteousness arise with healing in his wings; and ye shall go forth, and grow up as calves of the stall.
Malachi 4:1-3 (in Context) Malachi 4 (Whole Chapter) - Matthew 10:26
Fear them not therefore: for there is nothing covered, that shall not be revealed; and hid, that shall not be known.
Matthew 10:25-27 (in Context) Matthew 10 (Whole Chapter) - Matthew 10:28
And fear not them which kill the body, but are not able to kill the soul: but rather fear him which is able to destroy both soul and body in hell.
Matthew 10:27-29 (in Context) Matthew 10 (Whole Chapter) - Matthew 10:31
Fear ye not therefore, ye are of more value than many sparrows.
Matthew 10:30-32 (in Context) Matthew 10 (Whole Chapter) - Matthew 14:26
And when the disciples saw him walking on the sea, they were troubled, saying, It is a spirit; and they cried out for fear.
Matthew 14:25-27 (in Context) Matthew 14 (Whole Chapter) - Luke 2:10
And the angel said unto them, Fear not: for, behold, I bring you good tidings of great joy, which shall be to all people.
Luke 2:9-11 (in Context) Luke 2 (Whole Chapter) - Luke 5:26
And they were all amazed, and they glorified God, and were filled with fear, saying, We have seen strange things to day.
Luke 5:25-27 (in Context) Luke 5 (Whole Chapter) - Luke 12:5
But I will forewarn you whom ye shall fear: Fear him, which after he hath killed hath power to cast into hell; yea, I say unto you, Fear him.
Luke 12:4-6 (in Context) Luke 12 (Whole Chapter) - Luke 12:32
Fear not, little flock; for it is your Father's good pleasure to give you the kingdom.
Luke 12:31-33 (in Context) Luke 12 (Whole Chapter) - Acts 9:31
Then had the churches rest throughout all Judaea and Galilee and Samaria, and were edified; and walking in the fear of the Lord, and in the comfort of the Holy Ghost, were multiplied.
Acts 9:30-32 (in Context) Acts 9 (Whole Chapter)\ - Romans 8:15
For ye have not received the spirit of bondage again to fear; but ye have received the Spirit of adoption, whereby we cry, Abba, Father.
Romans 8:14-16 (in Context) Romans 8 (Whole Chapter) - 2 Corinthians 7:1
Having therefore these promises, dearly beloved, let us cleanse ourselves from all filthiness of the flesh and spirit, perfecting holiness in the fear of God.
2 Corinthians 7:1-3 (in Context) 2 Corinthians 7 (Whole Chapter) - 2 Corinthians 11:3
But I fear, lest by any means, as the serpent beguiled Eve through his subtilty, so your minds should be corrupted from the simplicity that is in Christ.
2 Corinthians 11:2-4 (in Context) 2 Corinthians 11 (Whole Chapter) - Ephesians 5:21
Submitting yourselves one to another in the fear of God.
Ephesians 5:20-22 (in Context) Ephesians 5 (Whole Chapter) - Philippians 2:12
Wherefore, my beloved, as ye have always obeyed, not as in my presence only, but now much more in my absence, work out your own salvation with fear and trembling.
Philippians 2:11-13 (in Context) Philippians 2 (Whole Chapter) - 2 Timothy 1:7
For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.
2 Timothy 1:6-8 (in Context) 2 Timothy 1 (Whole Chapter) - 1 Peter 1:17
And if ye call on the Father, who without respect of persons judgeth according to every man's work, pass the time of your sojourning here in fear:
1 Peter 1:16-18 (in Context) 1 Peter 1 (Whole Chapter) - 1 Peter 3:2
While they behold your chaste conversation coupled with fear.
1 Peter 3:1-3 (in Context) 1 Peter 3 (Whole Chapter) - 1 Peter 3:15
But sanctify the Lord God in your hearts: and be ready always to give an answer to every man that asketh you a reason of the hope that is in you with meekness and fear:
1 Peter 3:14-16 (in Context) 1 Peter 3 (Whole Chapter) - 1 John 4:18
There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love.
1 John 4:17-19 (in Context) 1 John 4 (Whole Chapter) - Jude 1:12
These are spots in your feasts of charity, when they feast with you, feeding themselves without fear: clouds they are without water, carried about of winds; trees whose fruit withereth, without fruit, twice dead, plucked up by the roots;
Jude 1:11-13 (in Context) Jude 1 (Whole Chapter) - Jude 1:23
And others save with fear, pulling them out of the fire; hating even the garment spotted by the flesh.
Jude 1:22-24 (in Context) Jude 1 (Whole Chapter) - Revelation 2:10
Fear none of those things which thou shalt suffer: behold, the devil shall cast some of you into prison, that ye may be tried; and ye shall have tribulation ten days: be thou faithful unto death, and I will give thee a crown of life.
Revelation 2:9-11 (in Context) Revelation 2 (Whole Chapter) - Revelation 14:7
Saying with a loud voice, Fear God, and give glory to him; for the hour of his judgment is come: and worship him that made heaven, and earth, and the sea, and the fountains of waters.
Revelation 14:6-8 (in Context) Revelation 14 (Whole Chapter) - Revelation 18:15
The merchants of these things, which were made rich by her, shall stand afar off for the fear of her torment, weeping and wailing,
Revelation 18:14-16 (in Context) Revelation 18 (Whole Chapter)
Saturday, April 15, 2006
Websites, Alright?
Bookmarks
- ALIS - Distance education
- Centre Communautaire Francophone De Cambridge
- Cold Mountain Internal Arts Homepage
- Distance Education - 2004-2005 University of Guelph Undergraduate Calendar
- Help w- Compaq SR1210NX (trying to install linux on this computer)
- MyPhotoAlbum of Keira (from Katimavik)
- Online Courses Continuing Education University of Waterloo
- The Dhammapada (buddhism)
- Tipitaka (buddhism)
- x.Bloodie.Kisses.x - My Cousin Shannon's Website
- [www.c64.com]
- ~ TruthRadio.Com ~ For a change in your life - The Truth (I think that this is that Harold Camping guy that Doug listens to, not sure why I have this link)
- • Sachs Report (a site that is a big jumble of random stuff)
- Ligonier Ministries - Renewing Your Mind Radio Program
- Isola Del Ugly - Gary's Website
- National Portrait Gallery
- National Homelessness Initiative - Initiative nationale pour les sans-abri
- Grace for the Wayward Heart - Greg's blog (from EBC)
- Look4aPlace.com - Places for Sale or Rent
- University of Waterloo - Off Campus Housing
- Zen Jewish Humor
- AWG-FR.com > Vice City > Remote loadings > Mods
- Nirvana – ( DRAIN YOU TAB )
- 8notes.com - Interactive Online Guitar Tuner
- wilko (this is a piece about the poet John Wilkinson)
- December 20, 2004 - Kierkegaard: 19th Century Philosophy for the 21st Century Church
- Salon 21st | Crips, Bloods in the Web 'hood
- TV4all.com - Your guide to FREE Live TV webcasts
- The Bible in MP3 Audio Format - World English Bible
- Compaq Presario SR1210NX Desktop PC - Product Specifications (trying to install linux on this computer)
- Heritage River Canoe & Kayak Company - Offering Canoe and Kayak Rentals on the Grand River
- Mathematics proves Christ was resurrected by God - Sify.com
- WOW manual-no handouts
- Quaker Clearness for Membership
- The View Askewniverse (the makers of clerks, mallrat's, et al)
- eryn's blog
- King's University College: School of Social Work
- Cheating Death
- the Daily Irrelevant » Blog Archive » For sale: Britain’s underground city
- Ontario Wage Survey - Occupational Summary Table (Ontario)
- PC Power Supply Failure Diagnostics - Computer ATX Power Supply Troubleshooting and Repair
- Power Supply Problem - Computer Repair with Diagnostic Flowcharts
- macdiv - McMaster Divinity College
- Find a Club - Toastmasters International
- Waterloo Silver Tongue Toastmasters - index page
- Articles for Christian Marriage, Growthtrac- The Benefit of Pre-Engagement Counseling
- The best Marriage articles and exclusive interviews with today's marriage experts.
- The Date Setters Diary (for the end of the world)
- Woman Made Gallery (art created by women)
- Woman Made Gallery is a tax-exempt, not for profit organization which supports women in the arts by providing opportunities, awareness, and advocacy through monthly thematic exhibitions and workshops which raise public awareness and recognition of women's cultural contributions.
- Welcome to the Starlight and Jane Bond
- [vidman.ca] Souljah Sessions podcast & show archive (a local Dub/Jungle show that's worth checking out)
- The Corduroy Suit - a Silver Jews homepage
- News, discography, photos, sounds, articles,
writing, poetry, chords, lyrics, etc. - Vintage Cardboard Signs - Vintage Depot Direct
- Unique vintage cardboard signs from Vintage Depot Direct. Great prices and a large selection.
- KDBA - brought to you by whatsup.ca
- Swimplex and Admission, City of Waterloo, Ontario, Canada
- And Admission Prices, Waterloo Swimplex
- Welcome to PublicTransportation.org
- BlogShares - Craig's Blog
- songs: ohia 2002 (an absolutely amaising site offering live mp3's of one of the best musicians there is)
- pattismith.net (an artist)
- Bernard Mandeville, "The Grumbling Hive" (a poem)
- French Word of the Day
- 100 richest peopleThe Art of Being A Ditz
- katlist (you know that you're in Katimavik when...)
Tuesday, April 11, 2006
I had the hiccups off and on all day. It was irritating. It's very difficult to have a serious conversation while hiccuping. They started this morning after eating some cold carrot's from the fridge. I got them to stop several times. At the moment I don't have them anymore. I hope that it will stay that way.
Saturday, April 8, 2006
John Mars, my landlord about 9 years ago in Paris, Ont
This guy was my first landlord when I moved out on my own for the first time. Check out his site, if you want, he has some great art and music!
http://www.johnmars.com/
http://www.johnmars.com/
Monday, April 3, 2006
A great idea with Water!
I was just reading The Homeless Guy's Page, and he linked to this awesome experiment where a guy bought a case of water and then went out with a homeless man and sold it along a busy highway on a hot day. I also checked out the main blog that this idea came from... (Neville's Financial Blog NevBlog.com - Tracking the road to financial success from the age of 22.)... I'm not quite sure what to think of this yet, but it's definitely an interesting page from the mind of a business'ish guy who makes me feel significantly less motivated! Purhaps, however, there is something to be gained from his wisdom or perspective.
Sunday, April 2, 2006
The Big Dipper
Last night, when I got home from working at the homeless shelter, I looked up at the sky. Right above my head, there was the big dipper!It made me think about God. What kind of arbitrary thing is the big dipper? Was this some kind of joke, God?
The Big Dipper is probably the most recognizable constellation. I've never really been able to see the snake or the man with the bow and arrow, but I have no difficulty recognizing the big and small dipper's. But what does this mean?
Those who don't believe in God would most likely see this as just another grouping of stars placed where they are by the laws of physics. Some would say that constellations are un-christian, but as a person who believes that God created everything, I have to ask myself, "What was he doing here? What was he trying to accomplish through making the stars look like that?".
The Big Dipper, as can be seen in the picture here, points to the small dipper. I was told as a child that part of the small dipper is the north star and that sailors would look for the north star as a way of navigating their ships home.
So, did God have some sort of message for humanity in leaving this one truly visible diagram in the heavens for us? Perhaps that God likes cooking pots? I suppose that a real dipper of this sort could be used for washing or drinking. Jesus commands us to drink and wash, and shows us the way home (just like the big dipper points to the north star)! Maybe the big dipper is Jesus! Are you washed in the blood of the lamb? ...but then what's the small dipper? ...na, that doesn't make sense!
Maybe all the stars in the sky are actually arranged in the shape of various water containers and we are just inconveniently placed at the wrong angle to see it.
In the end, the big dipper is just either one perplexing statement by God or physics once again trying to make itself look like God (like when it played that sneaky trick of creating conscious beings through trial and error of nearly infinite random combinations).
So, the Big Dipper is just God's way of saying Hi. Kind of like a great big wink in the sky. Well, "Big Dipper" right back at you! I must say that I'm still very confused about many of the things you have done and created!
